23 year old lala
As I've grown older I've come to understand a lot about my feelings towards art.
I'm 23 now, I've had this account for all of my teenage years, and through all of that time I've posted sporadically. I wish I could show you a painting that could make you understand me. I've wanted to be able to do that for a long time.
I think that I've never been suited for internet popularity, or any kind of notoriety. I have very simple life goals and desires and am very content in that way, as it has taken me a lot of personal hard work on my mental health to even develop a future for myself.
With that being said, I am a sensitive person, I am not a particularly smart person, and I am incredibly socially awkward. This has resulted in some of my most painful social failings ever occurring online; trying to appease audiences, specific people, or trying to make friends. I feel like my intentions are not clear to other people, in my artwork, my communications, therefore I should not share them as much. Only what is necessary.
I wish I could show you all my work and my heart in my artwork more often but I am a busy adult now. I still create, I still paint and draw and craft! I simply feel more comfortable keeping most of it to myself.
But I have a project in the works right now, something that will take months possibly over a year to create. A representation of a huge part of my life and love. I will share this piece with the wonderful people on here who still look at my art
♡ I am very grateful for the audience here that engages with my art , deviantart has always been fairly kind to me and I appreciate every like and comment that I get ♡
Windful long rambling of nothing, thank you for reading, thank you for being here.
Good evening.